This past Monday, I grabbed a book, my writing journal, statistics book, and escaped to a local café to reflect. I sat outside for hours contemplating over many things. It had been such a dramatic weekend and I was determined to vacate, to get away from all that was chasing me. I found myself writing outside while the sun set in the distance on one of those classic summer nights. Many things had been streaming through my mind like ticker tape, yet all I could do was sit there in silence and write my thoughts. Smearing ink, all my emotions that I had been bottling inside came flooding out as I wrote about cutting out certain memories, things, people in my life. There’s a song that Augustana sings called “Boston.” It talks about moving to another town and starting over. I don’t necessarily want to move away but there are moments where I wish that I could just start over.
Aside from all the melodramatic, “novela-like” issues, I have been considering a few things. I’m one that plans things in advance. Yes, I’m a planner. I’ve been looking into a few schools to do my grad work. So far, I’ve been thinking of Syracuse University in New York, SCAD (Savannah College of Art and Design), or University of Houston (my current school). I really like both out of state places. My dad wants me to go to New York, but I love my Houston. You don’t know how many times I’ve tried to leave but keep coming back. I love this place way too much. It’s my home and it’ll always have my heart. Tony Bennet “left his heart in San Fransisco,” I leave mine in Houston. The only difference is that I’m still here and don’t want to leave it for too long. Who knows it’s up in the air. I still have alot of time to think it over. There are so many things that I want to do in life and am convinced that I’ll accomplish all of them. I’m determined that little issues won’t get me down, especially when I have so much to live for, so here’s to life! Live it!
Love,
Ari
